LOVE- it happened.....probably i called it love..... I truly loved a girl (ya, its a girl...., people r very gender sensitive these days).... I loved her since I was in my school.... I fell for her at the first point my eyes pointed her..... (scientists say it requires 8 seconds atleast to fall for...but i bet it was more than that).... she was just the most beautiful girl i ever saw (others didnt think the same though)... her eyes , lips, cheeks....body....JESUS! it just reminded me of the days..... Since then i tried to remain wid her everytime we had house meetings (Oh! P.S.- she belonged to my house in school)...the moment she would march up nearer to me...i would just be taken to the world of her dreams.... its became such that it was just she coz of whom my school days wer worth! my dawn became sunny days coz of her!
We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find. And probably she was the one.
But i never dared to say her my feelings for the first two years! Finally, at the end of the 2nd year, she came to kno bout my feelings somehow or the other but still not from me. If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be. Thats all i had in my mind all along these years...probably i was the most C*@#$A of all.... She got a BF who was far 100% better than me and this made me cry inside.... i told u na i was the D*@#$R of all times....who gave a K*&D to himself! You see the hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else. You see, m tough (just to show my incapability of having her)... I just let go all this....thinking myself to be another Romeo who can never hav her Juliet (That was my Mistake 1..) but ya I was happy that she was happy wid the other guy (M*&^F! i wasnt happy.... i was just feeling like killing that guy who took my juliet but u see circumstances make you feel unconditionally happy)...and days past by! I dont know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every part of my body is broken too.(Today she's happy wid her guy...and m happy wid mine gal!....and m happy seeing her happy....LIFE MUST GO ON u see!)
(to my sweetheart: sweetheart, dont kill me after you read the above)
Life took a turn when another girl came to my life.... this time no first-sight happenings...it just happened! It just took a step ahead after a long friendship! LOVE! (Love!- felt it so.... but probably it wasnt or may be it was)...I didnt want it to happen.... it just happened....and almost at my NO FAULT... it was she who herself came so near to me that she became by life by own... But u see...life doesnt approve... we had a breakup after 9 months...and beliv me i never wanted/thought it would happen. Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it. Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.but More me...it wasnt love... its was just another flickering (realised it later)! Mistake 2 completed successfully.....but i must agree... we two shared somekinda admirable, alluring, angelic, beauteous, bewitching, divine symmetrical, well-formed, wonderful relationship which I would ever cherish and want to have... I generously agree it wasnt a mistake actually!
watch it out.... i already had two "LOVE" infact serious FLUCTUATING situations..... how can i have another.... but see it out...i had again...a diff gal... who's now almost my everything! Actually... it wasnt love perhaps in my last 2 states...it wer pure fluctuations which we often think to be love and the I was a well-known victim. Love is not so easy! But this time its love...pure love and not just flicks.... I dont wanna talk bout her here! Just wish this relationship goes forever! Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same. The spaces between your fingers were created so that she could fill them in.Its coz of her, I kno truly and really what love is! This time I must say.... i cant stay without her! No mistakes this time (wy should i run upon Chetan's story, i ve my own).
Two lives, two hearts joined together in friendship united forever in love.
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ll continue l8r...
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